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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

A few people I love

Despite my constant ranting I am a human being and here are a few people whom I love more than life itself.
This is my father with whom I have issues but I still dearly care for. Even at 37 I still seek his approval and respect in a way that destroys my otherwise titanic ability to use words to express myself. My beloved only son Max is there with him. Ten thosand volumes could never lend a clue to my love for him though it may not be clear to some. I think the cute little girl in the photo is cousin Maddie but I am not sure, the picture was taken with me absent and I don't speak to her parents since my divorce. Funny how things like divorces and nervous breakdowns turn close friends into people we used to know.

Ah my babby brother, the up and coming Rock Star. He is also my best friend and together we have walked through fire.

Myself and my three girls. Hailee, the oldest and my buddy. She is the one at ground level wearing one of my driving hats. Ariel the middle child, both in this picture and in real life. She is going to be dangerous and a force to contend with one day. Hell she already is. Then there is little CeCe...the babydoll. So much more than meets the eye with that little twinkle. Lil'bit is so like her mother as to be unreal. Dynamic and lovely I hope to protect her from a world that might damage such an innocent.
Shanzi. My hope and life. She is my second wife ...well not on paper yet. What she sees in a crusty crabby barnicle like myself I do not know. I am simply delighted she has alowed our lives to intertwin. If it were not for this woman I have no idea what course my life might have taken I only know that it would have not been a good one. She has litteraly saved me.
This is me ...I am glad that I can say I love myself.
My dear friend Jeff is the one the far right looking like a frat boy, he is not one. Mike of "UFO's" fame is there kind of in the middle being tall by sitting down and looking shorter than me. I am there to with my "Jew Fro" looking tall and being short. So to is Cathy, Jeffs sister and Tim Pomeroy. I have not spoke to him in years I hope he is doing well, he deserves to. Sara is in there as well. She is the sister if my other friend Mike and the girl whom Matthew would crumble up saltines over as she slept long ago in another world.
Well thats the short list I am off to call my brother far away in Georgia and have a diet coke.

Quotes


This is a kind of cop-out post for me. It just a list of quotes I like. Some are well known and famous others are by people I know or have known. Just thought I would throw this out there as this is the sort of thing that is reflective of my personal journal books and sketch pads.
"We're all fucked. It helps to remember this."
George Carlin (St. George)
"We are, each of us, a multitude."
Carl Sagan
"It's all very complex. Or else it's very simple. Or perhaps both. Or neither."
"Confidence in nonsense is a requirement for the creative process."
M. C. Escher
"Don't be afraid of mistakes, there aren't any"
Miles Davis
"Your problems is that you think you have time"
Don Juan to Carlos Castaneda
"The noun of self becomes a verb. This flashpoint of creation in the present moment is where work and play merge."
Stephen Nachmanovitch
"Keep climbing. If you can't fly, run. If you can't run, walk. If you can't walk, crawl. But by all means, keep moving!"
Rev. Martin Luther King Jr.
When you're going through hell... keep going!
Winston Churchill
“No one can give you any answers. There aren’t any. You have to discover for yourself—you must learn to navigate the mystery.”
Bill Hicks
"The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift".
Albert Einstein
"Leap and the net will appear"
Julia Cameron (The Artist's Way)
"I had nothing to offer anyone but my own confusion."
Jack Kerouac
"One lives one's life under constant tension, until it's time to go for good"
Albert Einstein
"Sanity (in the everyday sense of the word) is not an essential quality of great art."
Gerald Abraham
"You must do the thing you think you cannot do."
Eleanor Roosevelt
"I don't use drugs; my dreams are frightening enough."
Me...Christopher Stone
"Give Up"
Don Joyce
"If you don't want to, and you don't have to, the answer is DON'T"
-Casey Leonardo
"You need to get out more"
Bob Hennesy (Co-worker)
"The painting has a life of its own. I try to let it come through."
Jackson Pollock
"The difference between the artist and the non-artist is that the artist never stops playing."
Alex Mozart
"We have to live our lives as if we are dying of a fatal disease. Because we are."
Phineas Narco
"We may think in life that we are going around in circles. In reality it is like ascending a spiral staircase. From above it looks like we are going around in circles.Try to view it from the side".
Onan Canobite
"We will discover the nature of our particular genius when we stop trying to conform to our own or to other peoples' models, learn to be ourselves, and allow our natural channel to open."
-=-Shakti Gawain
"Artists who seek perfection in everything are those who cannot attain it in anything."
-=-Eugene Delacroix
"Imagination is more important than knowledge."
-=-Albert Einstein
"The great artist, whether he be musician, painter, or poet, is known for this absolute unexpectedness."
-Loren Eiseley, Strangeness in the Proportion
Once I personally realized I would never completely have my shit
"TOGETHER" ....I finally started to enjoy life....sort of.
-=-Bill T. Miller
"Man's unique agony as a species consists in his perpetual conflict between
the desire to stand out and the need to blend in."
-- Sydney J. Harris
"You don't have to listen to any voice that does not bring you peace."
-=-Unknown
"Trust that still, small voice that says 'This might work and I'll try it.'"
-=-Diane Mariechild
"The life which is not examined is not worth living".
-=-Plato
"Real learning comes about when the competitive spirit has ceased."
-=-J. Krishnamurti
"Where do we get our values from?"
-=-George Carlin
"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious".
Albert Einstein
"There are only two ways to live your life. One is though nothing is a
miracle. The other is as if everything is."
"It's always more fun when you don't understand it."
Anonymous 7-11 clerk
"A life is a single letter in the alphabet. It can be meaningless. Or it can be part of a great meaning."
The Jewish Theological Seminary:
"Art is meant to disturb."
-Georges Braque, Illustrated Notebooks
"Art is a house that tries to be haunted."
Emily Dickinson
"Life isn't about ending up properly adjusted by the time you hit 18 or even by the time you finish going to college and then going out into the world. In a way, life is about constantly improving one's adjustment to it".
My friend Dondra
“Green”
Also my friend Dondra when asked what four plus four came to.
"There's a big difference between wanting to and feeling that you should"
Unknown
"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."
Albert Einstein
"If you can't learn, you've got to feel"
My mother / My grandmother
"Life is full of misery, pain and tremendous suffering, and it's all over much too quickly."
Woody Allen (Annie Hall)
"If you wake up and you're not in pain, you know you're dead"
Russian Proverb
"We never really grow up, we only learn
how to act in public."
Bryan White
"When I stopped dwelling on how things would probably work out, I was better able to pay attention to what I was doing."
Living with Sobriety
"You can't run from your own legs"
St. Janor Hypercleets
"Life is a struggle."
My Mother
"Nothing has a stronger influence psychologically on their environment and especially on their children than the unlived life of the parent."
C. G. Jung
"Life beats down and crushes the soul and art reminds you that you have one."
Stella Adler
If you learn from your suffering,
and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,
you might be able to help someone else who's now
in the phase you may have just completed.
Maybe that's what it's all about after all...
~ Anonymous ~
"Life is beautiful".
-=-My Mother
"Do not weep; do not wax indignant. Understand."
-=-Baruch Spinoza
"...why is an artist an artist? Artists simply do feel and see things in a different way to other people. In a way it's a blessing, but it can also be a terrible curse. There's a great deal of satisfaction to be earned from it but often it's also a terrible burden."
-=-Roger Waters
"The position of the artist is humble. He is essentially a channel."
-=-Piet Mondrian
"The past is history, the future is a mystery; but today is a gift; that's why we call it the present."
-=-Unknown
"This isn't meant to last. This is for right now."
-=-Trent Reznor
"Poetry often enters through the window of irrelevance".
-=- M.C. Richards
"Painting is just another way of keeping a diary".
-=-Pablo Picasso
"The creation of something new is not accomplished by the intellect but by the play instinct acting from inner necessity. The creative mind plays with the objects it loves."
-=-C. G. Jung
"I don't believe there is a God. I know there is a God."
-=-C. G. Jung
"Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools, because they have to say something."
-=- Plato
"Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up."
-=-Pablo Picasso
Crazy people who are productive are geniuses. Crazy people who are rich are eccentric. But crazy people who are neither productive nor rich are just crazy.
-=-Unknown
"Perhaps God is not dead; perhaps God himself is mad."
-R.D. Lang
"I choose a block of marble and chop off whatever I don't need."
-Francois-Auguste Rodin (1840-1917), when asked how he managed to make his remarkable statues.
"Think mystery, not mastery"
-=-Julia Cameron (The Artist's Way)
"I feel that life is divided into the horrible and the miserable. That's the two categories. The horrible would be like, I don't
know, terminal cases, you know, blind people, crippled. I don't know how they get through life. It's amazing to me. And the miserable is everyone else. So you should be thankful that you're miserable, because that's very lucky to be miserable."
-=-Woody Allen (Annie Hall)
"If Jesus Christ came back today and saw what was being done in his name, he'd never stop
throwing up."
-=-Woody Allen (Hannah and Her Sisters--written)
"And ye shall know the truth and the truth shall make you mad."
-Aldous Huxley
Porn is just like sex with all the awkwardness edited out.
-=-Phineas Narco
"It's not that I'm afraid of death, I just don't want to be there when it happens."
-=-Woody Allen
"My one regret in life is that I am not someone else".
-=-Woody Allen
"Make your own recovery the first priority in your life."
-=-Robin Norwood
"What if everything is an illusion and nothing exists? In that case, I definitely overpaid for my wood flooring."
-=-Woody Allen
"I've been wrestling with reality for most of my life. I'm pleased to say I've won."
-=-Emo Phillips
"It is much more comfortable to be mad and know it, than to be sane and have one's doubts."
-G. B. Burgin
"Knowledge and ego are directly related. the less knowledge, the greater the ego"
-=-Albert Einstein
"Be wary when you find yourself walking down a path towards knowledge--all such roads inevitably lead to madness."
-Erehwon
"What we imagine is order is merely the prevailing form of chaos."
-Kerry Thornley, Principia Discordia, 5th edition
"Half the world is composed of people who have something to say and can't, and the other half who have nothing to say and keep on saying it."
-=-Robert Frost
"If it was up your ass you'd know where it was"
Mike James
"What?"
Mike Thorton
Son, here's your weekend cup"
My Father on my wedding day when he handed me a disposable cupe full of bourbon and diet coke
Some times what people think about you is scarier than a bully-boy with a gun and creepier than home made trailer porn.
Me, Christopher Stone

The Five Levels of Madness




Level 1. Coincidence: you start to NOTICE synchronicities around you. Around 4-6 a day. For example, you're in a chat room and listening to music at the same time. In the song you're listening to, someone says the words "Why not?" and a second later, or at exactly the same time, the words "Why Not?" appear on your screen as part of a conversation. Or else, you are thinking of onions for some reason and the radio is on and at that moment someone mentions onions on the radio. *Most* people do not notice these things. This is in the realm of AWARENESS.

Level 2: Significance: These coincidences start to happen more and more and each time they do you FEEL an eerie significance even though you can't say what the significance is. This is akin to Richard Dreyfuss saying "This is important, this means something" while pointing to a pile of mashed potatoes in Close Encounters of the Third Kind. This is in the realm of FEELING

Level 3: Ideas: You start to get ideas about the 'significant coincidences'. These ideas, are actually not correct or at least not in sync with consensus reality. For example, you notice that the light outside the door of the door of your particular apartment, the light in the hallway is a LITTLE bit brighter than the other lights in the hallway. You get the IDEA that this is because someone has replaced it with a cancer-causing radiation emitter. Probably someone in the government. But you don't BELIEVE this...this is in the realm of a THOUGHT.

Level 4: Connection: If the thoughts are persistent, each of the significant coincidences that you notice and have thoughts about start to relate to each other, in a way that are meaningful to you. For example, you may hear a hum come through your apartment and get the persistent idea that it is from members of the government, that have taken up residence in an adjacent apartment, sending cancer causing rays toward you. Combined with the other idea of the light, and further ideas, more and more 'evidence' is being accumulated. These 'meaningful connections' usually have a grandiose, religious, or sinister bent to them.
In other words, each of these moments/ideas are like stars in a constellation 'forming' in your mind the outline of a giant scorpion in the sky (or a boat or a donkey or whatever else is culturally (read: personally) significant). Every time you look at the constellation you MAY BELIEVE you see a giant scorpion. This is in the realm of BELIEF.

Level 5: Disconnection: You disconnect from reality, or at least consensus reality. Not only do you see a scorpion in the sky but the scorpion comes down and talks to you. It also imports to you, possibly, knowledge that you might not have any business knowing, or otherwise not know. This is the realm of the shaman and the collective unconsciousness. Strange events occur. You can 'see into the future', have remote viewing or out of body experiences, ghosts tap the back of your chair, etc. This, debatably, at least from the Western point of view, is known as 'your mind playing major tricks on you'.
Notes: This process can be likened to a person jumping from a dock onto a boat leaving the dock. He leaves the dock because the crowd on it makes him nervous and wants to get away from them. As he has one foot on the boat, one foot on the dock, he has three choices: 1.) stay on the dock, 2.) jump on the boat (go mad), or 3.) Fall in the water. Once you have reached level 5 you are 'on the boat'.
The 'dock' is consensus reality. The 'water' down below is the realm of the mental patient in Western society. Medications and mental health interventions are analogous here to 'life preservers'.
Some countries and cultures do not have the technology or wherewithal for medications and services and so forth. For the people in the water, they either drown or are taken care of by people who jump in and buoy them. Other countries deal with this by making the 'boat riders' as holy people and revere them.
However, in Western culture, being 'on the boat' (unless you are a Hopi elder living on an Indian reservation and have people taking care of you) is not compatible with 'activities of daily living', things like going grocery shopping, paying rent and bills on time, having a social life, etc. People in the water and certainly on the boat are 'stigmatized', as weak and dangerous to the 'flock' on the 'dock'. The 'boat rider' or 'water dweller' or 'those that cannot tolerate the dock' (for reasons of the same sensitivities to irrelevant stimulus that leads to level 1) and all the rest of it requires intervention.
Again, in other cultures, going on 'boat trips' can be a valuable service to the community, as if a ship captain has gone out and brought back fish, or treasures from other lands in the form of art, messages from beyond, pognostications, etc.
Getting 'lost at sea' is also a possibility.

"Creativity is a bloody nuisance and an evil curse that will see to it that you die from stress and alcohol abuse at a very early age, that you piss off all your friends, break appointments, show up late, and have this strange bohemian urge (you know that decadent laid-back pimp-style way of life). The truly creative people I know all live lousy lives, never have time to see you, don't take care of themselves properly, have weird tastes in women and behave badly. They don't wash and they eat disgusting stuff, they are mentally unstable and are absolutely brilliant."
Toke Nygaard

The Religious and the Right

Radical religious right leaders scare me in the same way guns do. I'm not talking about good simple religious folk here. I empathize with you people. I know you're frightened. It looks like the bad guys are winning. And I know you want to do the good Christian thing
and save some of the bad guys, but you're probably preaching to the unconvertible. This is a long trail ride, and occasionally a satanic heifer or two is gonna head over the ridge and go off on their own.
Let them go. Quit trying to set God up on blind dates with people he has nothing in common with. Well, anyway, you're good people and I got no quarrel with you, Atticus.
I'm talking about the overzealous ones. The ones with that bloodless, glazed-over
"Prophets of the Caribbean" look. You know, the ones who look like the guys who
kept Howard Hughes alive those last three years. Let's run down our roster of
modern-day Pharisees:

Jerry Falwell, with his big hillbilly grin concealing his hatred for you and
the fun you can have with your nasty little genitals.

Then we've got Pat Robertson, the Dixie charlatan who contends he held counsel
with God, saw Jesus, and has it on good authority from the Holy Ghost that
Iraq had an arsenal of nuke-you-ler weapons aimed at the United States.

These modern-day Torquemadas can't wait to seize the reins and begin
slaughtering the nonbelievers. And if you don't think they'll do it--if you
don't think you'll be on the short list for a public roasting a la Joan of Arc,
well, you better stop dancing around the pagan Maypole and think again,
Caligula.

Now I am sure to many of those in the Radical Right, I probably appear to be a
bitter, cranky pragmatist with the mouth of a stevedore, and the soul of a
heretic. Good, they got something right.

I'm sorry, you just don't go shooting doctors. If a judgment's to be made, God
gets to make it. Not you. Him. You are Barney Fife. Keep your bullet in your
shirt pocket.

If there is a God and If abortion is wrong, and I believe in many cases
it is, somewhere down the line God's going let you know about it. From what I gather in reading the Old Testament, God paybacks are an eternal bitch.
Somebody else's abortion is none of your business. And listen, if you really believe that your God is telling you to kill an abortionist in his name, then you've got to crush some tinfoil on your antenna, pal, because you're getting some heavy interference.

And you know, while I'm at it, I don't care what arcane passage you pull out of
the Old Testament and run through your Jeremiah-begat-Jedediah Decoder Ring,
one of the definitive tenets of Christianity is tolerance. Trust me, there's no
version of the Bible that says Love thy neighbor unless he's a Peter Allen fan.
Any supposedly Christian doctrine must have at the core a belief in the concept
of unqualified love for your fellow man. Unless of course he proves himself to
be a total asshole. Then you can ditch him. Sure, God understands that, who do
you think booked Satan's flight? What he can't understand is turning against
someone because you don't happen to agree with their sexual preference. Forget
your linear, biblical interpretation that tells you to ostracize gays, and
follow your heart. It's like when your driving test instructor would tell you
to run the stop sign. And you would, and then he'd flunk you. And you'd say,
"But you told me to." And he'd say, "Sorry, but you never run a stop sign." And
you never carpet bomb a group of people with hate because they're different
from you. Case closed, Tail-gunner Joe.

And tolerance should extend to ideas as well. A schoolbook cannot corrupt your
child, especially one whose main characters are a Scarecrow, a Tin Man, and a
Cowardly Lion. And if you truly think your kid's character depends on prayer,
then damn it, pray with your kid--at home! Stop fobbing off on the public
school system your responsibilities as a parent. The schools are there to
teach your kids to read, write, and add--skills they will need if they are
going to apply for and wisely invest their unemployment checks one day.

And if you're sold on prayer as a diving board into the day, get up a few
minutes early, forgo the trip to the 7-Eleven for a mini keg of Colombian
blend, sit down with your kids you profess to love so much, and lead them in
prayer.

Look, I realize this is America and everybody has the right to organize. The
Democratic Party should try it sometime. But you know something, the members of
the Radical Religious Right have to get it through their skulls: Separation of
Church and State. Separate. Not together. Apart. Like Burt and Loni. One here
and one there. The founding fathers set it up like hat because back home in
merry old England they witnessed scenes of theocratic horror that would have
made even Quentin Tarantino puke.

I can only hope the Radical Right's grab for political power will eventually
prove to be their Holy Waterloo.

I know we don't like to vote--marking your ballot nowadays is like choosing
between the 3 A.M. showing on Beastmaster on Showtime and the 3 A.M. showing of
Beastmaster 2 on Cinemax.

But the less we involve ourselves in the political process, the more special
interest groups and fanatics move in.

So vote, and remember this when you're alone in the booth with just you and
your lever. The Radical Right believes the word "Right" does not simply denote
their placement on the political spectrum, but also their sanctimoniously smug
assertion that "right" is exactly what they are on any and all issues.
AMEN.


This is Shanzi and I in a rare moment of public affection. I like this picture. That's all.

Death


Death is the price we pay for life. Oh, by the way, I did see it much cheaper at Costco last weekend, so you might want to shop around.

We have a lot of cute euphemisms for death: "croaked," "kicked the bucket,"
"bought the farm," "took a dirt nap," "met your maker," "cashed in your chips,"
"Met your final destination." And many others.

There is a school of thought, usually promulgated by the crystal-jewelry-wearing,
multiple-cat owning, ancient-Volvo-with-"Practice Random Kindness And Senseless
Acts Of Beauty"-bumpersticker driving segment of our population, that says we
as a society need to remove the stigma from death and regard it as just another
part of life. My father in law runs with these rouges and let me tell you, their new –age doctrine is just as annoying as any born again Christians. These mantra chanting, flying saucer spotting simpletons ask, "Why do we insist on portraying death as cruel?" Well, it's difficult to answer that question, but if I had to hazard a guess, I would say, because it fucking kills us.

Other cultures, perhaps those with less material wealth but a far richer
spiritual heritage, embrace and celebrate death. But then, what do they have to
live for in the first place? Of course you're going to have a big bash for Grandpa when he dies, he doesn't have to eat grubs and dung off a stick anymore.

Another thing I don't get is when a society decides they need to keep the
remains of a beloved leader on display. That's great as long as they still
admire you, but look what happened to Vladimir Lenin. Now they've got him
standing up outside a Moscow restaurant, where parking valets pin car keys to
his face.

It's ironic that in our culture, everyone's biggest complaint is never having
enough time, yet nothing terrifies us more than the idea of eternity. In
America, we want to live forever, and a wide array of advanced cosmetic
surgeries now guarantees that at least certain parts of us will. In fact, an
increasing number of deceased bodies are now neither buried nor cremated, but
returned for a deposit. Experts say that over the past 20 years, there's been a
72-percent increase in the number of eulogies that end in the phrase "Nice
Rack." I personally don’t believe in an afterlife which is a good thing, I am sure I would get bored after the first thousand years or so.

Everyone who survives a near-death experience reports the same phenomenon, that
being a bright light. You know what that light is? It's the doctor, trying to
detect any brain function by shining a flashlight into your pupils.

Now, the second worst way to die has to be in an airplane crash. The worst way,
of course, is choking to death on an apricot pit after waving off the only guy
offering you the Heimlich because he was too good-looking, and you were afraid
he'd stir something in you that's best left dormant.

Some people feel the need to have very bizarre funerals, trying to be the life
of the party even when they're dead by insisting that everyone wear a Hawaiian
shirt. These are the same assholes who get married on roller coasters. You
know, it's only a matter of time before some octogenarian prankster rigs his
body to pop up out of the casket like Big Mouth Billy Bass and sing, "Don't
Worry -- Be Happy".

And the cost of dying is unbelievable. Because just like in life, in death we
can't resist having the latest and best of everything. I mean, a casket with
Internet hook-up? Give me a break. When I go, stuff my ass full of candy and
toys and let some little Mexican kid whack me with a bat. I don't give a shit;
I'm dead.

At my funeral, I want to have a TV screen showing the end of "The Beverly
Hillbillies," where they're all waving goodbye, but they have my face digitally
superimposed over Granny's.

It is said energy can't be created or destroyed. I agree with that. I
believe there is a spark inside each and every one of us that exist forever or at least until proton decay has it’s way and that’s close enough.

I urge you to view your inevitable demise not with grief or fear but with
acceptance and perhaps even hope. Your death is an end to sadness and pain.
Your death is a passage to another form of being (Granted one where self awareness of your former self is moot). Your death is a moment of unification with the sacredness of eternity. My death, on the other hand? Greatest fucking tragedy in the history of mankind.

Tricks and Truth


I love Penn and Teller. I think that besides the fact they are hugely entertaining they also do a lot of good work debunking fraud. Watching an interview with them the other night Penn said an interesting thing: he was asked how a famous trick he and Teller do is done. He didn’t give the actual answer, of course. But he talked about how people are almost always disappointed when they find out the secret of a trick. It’s not that revealing the magic itself is disappointing, It’s that the way the trick is done is generally "ugly". It’s not magic, not something hugely slick; it’s tape, or a misdirection, or a reach into a pocket.
People don’t want to believe a trick can be done in such a clumsy, ugly, obvious way. It’s not the knowledge itself that disappoints; knowledge, Penn said, is always good, always beautiful.
I agree with him. I watched a friend of mine do some simple tricks once, and I was shocked at how simple and how ugly some of them were done. I guess my problem was that the trick was actually a lot simpler than I thought. I was expecting some incredibly deft sleight of hand, requiring hours of practice to perfect. I was not expecting a magnet! I mean, that’s cheating!
I felt silly thinking that. It’s a trick, you idiot! I told myself. It’s cheating no matter what.
It’s like watching a movie, and seeing how the special effect is done. I find that disappointing, sometimes. But in that case, it’s because when I watch the movie, I am suspending my disbelief. I don’t mean to sound formal, but when I watch a movie, I enter a contract with the movie maker: they will entertain me, and I’ll try not to ask too many questions. I’ll buy into their premise, and they won’t violate that trust.
The real world isn’t like that. There is no contract; the universe obeys a set of rules, and those rules will hold sway whether you believe in them or not. So finding out what’s happening behind the scenes can’t be a let down. There’s no violation of disbelief, because there’s no disbelief.
Sometimes people tell me that when they learn the science behind something, they feel disappointed. I think that’s silly. Knowing more is never disappointing. When you look at the stars, they may look pretty. And that’s great! But look at that star there. It’s one thousand trillion kilometers away. Or that one: it’s so young, it’s still surrounded by the gas and dust cloud from which it formed. That one there will blow up in less than ten thousand years. That one is blue because its temperature is twice that of the Sun’s. That one there has a system of planets orbiting it. This one weirdly has three times the amount of magnesium in it than current theory predicts.
When I think of those things, my heart swells with that knowledge. And not just the knowledge itself, but the fact that we can, in fact, have that knowledge. Knowing those things enriches my experience and magnifies my sense of awe and wonder, exponentially increasing my enjoyment of the stars.

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Sex Drugs and Privacy


It's time that we as a nation start staying out of people's personal problems and vices. What are we doing spending billions of dollars trying to keep people's private lives in order?

What is this Orwellian hang-up of ours of sticking our nose into other
grown-up's affairs? What concern is it of ours if some stoner wants to spend his, his, life hooked up to a bong?

I'm not exactly pro-drug, they obviously can cause a lot of damage, but I am
pro-logic and you're never going to stop the human need for release from pain or the eternal pilgrimage for increased pleasure. The government can take away all the
drugs in the world and people will just spin around on their lawn until
they fell down and saw God.

It seems to really piss-off the nation when someone decides to waste his own life chasing down chemical euphoria in an unchecked fashion. I'm not sure why. Our displeasure with people hell-bent on self-ruination through drug use seems disproportionate to its direct impact on the general public. In fact, I believe we amplify that impact when we attempt to enforce unenforceable laws. It not only costs us billions of dollars, but it puts us in harms way as addicts are driven to crime as a means to an end. Why do we chase druggies down like villagers after Boris Karlov in an old monster flick? Let them legally have what they already have and defuse the bomb.

You know, I think the hysteria about drugs is often times baseless. The war on drugs is more often than not, fruitless and patently hypocritical, be honest with yourselves now. What drugs are the most dangerous to the most Americans? It’s a no brainer: cigarettes and alcohol. Those are the statistical champions by hundreds of thousands of deaths. And wouldn't you rather shoot a game of pool with a guy smoking a joint than a guy with anger issues drinking whisky and beer?

Someone smoking a joint doesn't all of the sudden rear back and stab his
partner in the eye socket with a cue stick, not normaly anyway? He's too busy laughing at the term “Rack’em up”. If pot were leagle maybe a lot of "drive by shootings" would become "drive by laughing for no good reason-s" instead.

You know as far as the harder drugs go, if somebody wants to shoot up and die right in front of you, more power to him. It is his call. The herd always has a way of thinning itself out. We aren't stupid people here in America, no more than anyone else in the world, so why are we obsessing on habits that harm no one but the habitual, while we let real problems slip ever further out of reach. We seem to be willfully turning away from reality, and from logic might I add, to punish people, who in many instances are doing an extremely fine job of punishing themselves, thank you.

In some cases they're not even punishing themselves, but rather just doing the same thing so many “up standing” citizens do when they have a few drinks or have dessert. Believe it or not there are a rare few people who can manage their lives and their personal habits.

What strikes me as even more ridiculous and totalitarian is Americas attempts to regulate and control sexual behavior.

Is their anything more fruitless than trying to legislate sexual behavior? You know according to the law, you can't even get a blowjob in Georgia? No wonder Sherman hustled through my home state. Moreover, if you stop to think about it, who is hurt by the time honored unavoidable trade of prostitution? Only the guys who pay extra to be hurt. There is no sane reason to cling to this archaic legal attempt to curtail an activity that will be around until the end of time. You know, you could
come back to this planet ten million years from now and man could have evolved to the point where he doesn't even take nutrition derived at by killing something and take it into his system via a hole in head anymore, but I guarantee you that he'll still be cruising North Avenue in Atlanta trying to get a blow job from somebody named Blondie.

What sort of perfect harried experiment society are we striving for ? One where you will be forced by the puritanical mentality of your pin-headed Gladys Kravitz neighbors into a tightly constricted, over-regimented existence? A life safe from the temptations and rewards of the flesh? If that's your kink - go for it. But for the rest of us, let's save the money we're wasting trying to regulate other people's
private lives. If an individual wants to smoke a joint, or shoot up, or
munch blotter like roasted peanuts “Tune in, Turn on and drop out”, let them. All right? Timothy Leary is dead now so who cares? Let's put the billions we're wasting on a drug war, fought by fitness fanatics on steroids and three-martini senators rolling in pork, and the resources we dedicate to enforcing intrusive sex-law and let's put it back in the educational system. Let's free the courts and jails of lonely men and broken women who feel the need to buy and sell sex. Let's let hookers and their johns have a safe building somewhere off the streets, inspected medically and taxed up the wazoo. Most importantly, let's stop pretending that people are going to lead the lives that we tell them to lead. Let's stop pretending that a few simple prohibitions on substances and activities will yield up a nation of Beaver Cleavers: polite, clean, sexless, and ready to serve their fellow man, no questions asked.

People are people. They're going to with their lives what they want to do, whether you like it or not. There is nothing you can do about them that won't break the bank, overcrowd the prisons, or corrode an already oxidized judicial system. People are perennially going to get fucked up and fucked, and we will continue to get fucked over if we don't concede the fact that there is absolutely fuck we can do about it.

Daytime Lamplight


Daytime's knocking on the door, it is looking for me again.
Nighttime doesn't mean a lot to me. It is just a convenience of phrase.
A label for a passing phase.
I pray I am strong enough for what we put ourselves through these days.
If I could find a way for us to be, to pass the time.
Something different instead of what we always do.
Something new.
Something for you.
Sometimes is always now, and it’s all I feel up too most of the time.
Sometimes it’s not worth it, the pain for me or you.
What we sometimes do.
On the days we just get so lost in getting high and away.
Another sacred cow for us to slaughter.
Is destruction what is required for us to feel anything?
Is pain what makes people like us feel real?
It is this junkie dream of delayed reality we have.
I understand that.
It is a death by degrees. Suicide’s now available on a payment plan.
The sour smell or distraction leaves, lingers in the air like the sound of a gun on a quite day.
You know all this looks good on paper. But we aren’t watching it on T.V.
When I try to think it feels like an itch in my brain.
What do you need to need from me?
We have Bugs in our veins.
Sunshine, back one more time, too soon again.
It has been looking for me like you do when I’ve been gone too long.
There is no right time, not here under the jaundice moon in the place we call home.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Secret

There is a story behind this weird poem. I am not going to tell it here or anywhere,
anytime. it's private. A secret and it's nature and beauty would be tarnished by being too open with it. (For me at least)
It is obviously a love poem but why I like it so much and it's "exact" meaning are only known to myself.Obviously too, it is composed about an individual. That person knows it is about and for her but I have never fully told her all about it either.
The poem or whatever you want to call this, is for she and I alone.

a grin
a kiss
a wink
a smile for you
for the days that bring burdens to trouble us
the days that make smiles difficult to cultivate
some soft silly thoughts for those long hours when the weight of labors need is heavy and the morning is far away

the space between us
the words spoke in silent places with no one to hear

endure

love is a light

for me and for you

their is always the sun

The First Day on Earth


“The beginning of Wisdom is to call things by their names”
-Chinese Proverb

I am not a poet and to prove it I present to you exhibit A, the smelly collection of steaming poop below. It could only be more like what finds drifting lazily around a toilet bowl if it had corn in it. From that description you might think I don’t like this poem (?) but that’s not true. I do like it. It’s one of my favorite things I have ever written. I just don’t think it’s very good.

A beast crawls down from the boughs and holds close to the forest floor.
Nights final hour falls.
With four legs Darwin’s Bain crawls to the edge of the African plain.
A pause splits forever as two arms stretch and reach.
A breath is stolen from the air as the Sun breaks.

Man strides out onto the amber blades of the wild savannah.
The shadows watch from the leaves of the jungle behind this new thing.
Eyes that see, eyes that catch more than the mornings light look upon the first day on Earth.

The Earth which before this dawn had no name and slept in void dreams is nowawake.
Uncounted years she held her cannibal children close to a heartless bosom and spun in reflected light. The Moon a mirror for a world in waiting.

Waiting until the time when she could christen the seas, the mountains, the beast and the green things that grow without tear or laugh of their own.

Patient slumber ended for Gaia now. Her wombs prodigy has risen and Adam, the savage Angel, is born.

Born to blaze with an unseen fire and burn with a fire to rival the Sun.
Born to tame all other flames and make them his own.
Born to give voice to the Cosmos and its finest rarest manifestation, life.
Born this day the first day on Earth.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Laundry and Boredom in Suburbia

Okay, I have never seen or heard of a Laundromat named “Wash’By’Gosh, the Laundromat across the street from our townhouse is actually named “Westport Cleaners and Coin Laundry”. It doubles as a business with “Westport Hair” and has at least two apartment units above it. Something in me suspects that the real name is a funnier one than the name I pulled out of my tookus. Neither is as funny as “Piggly Wiggly”.

I don’t like to take too much creative license in my essays normally. That, in my opinion, is too close to writing fiction for which I have no talent. On this occasion I make an exception to that rule but only with the name. The rest of my little reflection laid out below is all taken from my life.

I really hope there is a “Wash’By’Gosh somewhere. The world would seem a little sadder without one.




Once again here I am, damn near broke and bored stupid. Therefore, I take the last of the loose change on hand and go to the Laundromat. The washer is acting stranger than a reality show celebrity on crack so I decide to not risk doing the wash at home; besides, I want to get out for a bit.

It seems like I’m constantly doing laundry. At home and abroad I am forever washing clothes. I am constantly washing basket after basket of stinking wrinkled thread worn shirts, sweaters and pants but not socks. There are no socks in my laundry. There are no socks because I no longer even bother with socks anymore. I just wear them until they become to stiff and gruesome to put on my feet or until they crawl away to follow hopes and dreams of their own. When I run out I simply buy new ones. They are a replaceable commodity in my life not unlike toilet paper or employment. Socks aside, I feel like an undue amount of time in my life is spent doing laundry. I know that I did three loads less than a week ago, now I got three more loads to do. I can’t blame it on anyone else, Shanzi washes her own clothes and when she feels industrious, brave or both she also washes some of mine. That is if I let her. I am responsible for this high maintence wardrobe. Christ! How can one person wear that much clothing in so short a span of time? Who?!? I don’t think I own that much goddamn clothing.

I load up my tiny economy car and head the 25 or so yards down the street to the Laundromat. I realize it is a short distance to justify driving when I constantly carry on about conservation and eviromentalism but who the Hell wants to make six round trips down the street and mind you, there is no sidewalk, carrying smelly overburdened laundry baskets? The Earth will survive this minor assault and in any case my guilt over this should be nullified by the fact I I recycle and practice reasonable amounts of conservation on a daily basis. In fact the car Shanzi and I share is an excellent example of the personal ecologicaly sound practices I apply everyday in my life. The car itself has an inbuilt environmentale consciousness. You see, there are times it chooses not to run at all so as to cut down on pollution and reduce the fuel burden . It is also such a gamble to drive it long distances that most of the time I simply take public transit or walk rather than drive. A car sitting cold and unused outside your apartment doesn’t consume ANY fuel (Fossil or otherwise) or emit green house gases in any quantity. You just don’t get more eco-friendly than that! Ralph Nader and Clarke Howard would both be proud of me. I am saving both the environment and money with my car.

Tic Toc, Tic Toc.

I load up the car with dirty clothes and make my way to the "Wash'by'Gosh" laundromat. As i enter the building I take in my suroundings and the suroundee's. The folks in that lot consisted of several different stereo-types. There are two loudish women in their early twenties(?) discusing sex toys and pet grooming, a faimly of wary Latin Americans, an angry looking grand-mother type and three white males who depite bearing of varying ages all shared a singular "mad fishermen" sensibility. Luckily for the Suspension of disbelief of this narrative there were no surly teens or looming black men, and sadly, no laundromat vixens (Like those portrayed in jean advertisements) present. Having met the players, I settle in for the long haul at “Wash’By’Gosh” and commence with the dull task at hand. I have with me an ipod and a cache of Cigarettes to make being here just about a passable event. A bottle of carefully camouflaged whiskey also plays a key role. I resort to the camouflage tactics with the booze not out of respect for laundromat rules or a sense of public sensibility but because I don’t want to share.

I finally get through all three loads and just when I think I’m done I realize I have to wash my sports jacket* too because, while it doesn’t look too bad** it smells a little whiffie. I have a job interview tomorrow and I will want...no need this my favorite coat. I wish to look presentable and stay warm and do both if possiable. That can be trickey here in Washington even in the high summer and this is January I'm dealing with now. This is the Pacific Northwest Coast. It’s always wet and cold. This is a temperate rainforest on the Canadian Border after all. The jacket is of course “dry clean only” but I have neither the time nor the cash for that option.
In any case or this particular case actually, I’ll want the jacket and I’ll want it clean.

I am going to have to wash it too.

Maybe, I reason, if I use the gentle cycle and only tumble dry it on a low heat this should work. I have to get the smell of four different colognes, two different perfumes, one cat and uncounted volumes of carcinogenic smoke out of it. With care there should be no problem, maybe even that odd stain next to the collar I always hide with a scarf will come clean.

One last load.

Shit, fine then.

I put in all but one of the two bucks worth of quarters the washing Nazis require for a load and as I try to put in the last, my last, quarter into the washer the damn machine won't accept it. Upon closer examination, I realize the Queen of England is on the damn thing. The quarter that is, not the washing machine. It’s a fucking goddamn Canadian quarter but I've already put the soap and my jacket in the machine so I’m screwed. I try to bum a quarter from one of the other winners in the Laundromat The change machine they have here in “Wash’By’Gosh” is only giving out nickels and dimes as change and the washing machines and dryers don’t accept anything but quarters…American quarters. Here again the Universe bites me in the ass as no one will bum me a quarter or they don’t speak English. At least they pretend to not speak English maybe I should have been more generous with my whiskey earlier.

I have to go to the 7-11 or Chevron or whatever the hell P.O.S. convenience store it is next door and I have to buy a “Green” slurpee. What the hell flavor is “Green”? I have to buy a green slurpee because they are out of “Coke” and “Blue” flavor. More importunately however, I have to by a green slurpee because the 7-11 doesn’t give change without a purchase.

I head back to the Wash’By’Gosh, green slurpee in hand where I sit there smelling the fumes of soap and fabric softener which is actually kind of nice but unfortunately it also mixed with the body odor from my fellow washers. Keep in mind when I say washers I mean washers of clothes not washers of themselves. I don’t think some of these folks have personal hygiene habits any better than those of my socks if their fragrance is any indication. At least my socks have the courtesy to go missing when they get whiffie. I start the machine and take a huge pull off my watery unnaturally colored drink and wish it was cut with some chemical agent stronger than green dye # 7.

The Laundromat itself, unlike Washington State summers, is hot, and humid. It’s also furnished with cracked plastic uncomfortable chairs with only AARP and Field & Stream magazines to read. They have a T.V. with cable here but it is always either on a sports event that I don’t give a shit about, usually NASCAR, or on “Telemundo”. Don’t get me wrong, Telemundo looks like some pretty entreating stuff, especially when compared to NASCAR but I don’t speak Spanish. I do watch it on occasion but only when they have on Latin Americas funniest home Videos or those peculiar children’s shows with those barely dressed “Hee-Haw Hot” women on them. It’s when I watch the latter that I really wish I understood Spanish so I could figure out why porn stars are showing up in children’s shows. I am becoming increasingly restless and dangerously sober not to mention the temperature is becoming very uncomfortable. While I appreciate the climate change I have had enough of this place so I decide to for-go the dryer and just let my jacket air dry overnight. Here on the coast it won’t matter if it’s a little damp with our climate here a “little damp” is a lot dryer than most things including the clothes on my back. I can see my building out the window and it is now become more appealing to go home and be bored than stay here and be bored.

I finally get home where I just collapse on the bed for half an hour. Sleep proves as elusive as hot ass at closing time down at our local bar the Knotty Pine. The cable is full of programs more dull than my life presently and Shanzi is gone to her Dads for a few days so I try to come up with a productive way to ignore the rising pointless feeling growing in me. I try to first paint then draw then write but the muse fails me. Nothing comes. The “muse” is off somewhere else. Probably off fucking “talent”. Neither of the two is present now so maybe they are off together somewhere, right?

Lacking anything else to do until morning, I get on the computer and download porno off the internet just to kill three or four hours. It's just all crap there too. Every two hundred photos there is something somewhat interesting or at least something I have not seen before. Eventually even porn fails to entertain, so I think "I'll go to McDonald's” Westport lacks even that but there is one in neighboring Hoquiam. “I'll go to McDonald's and that will kill some time. I'll go to McDonald's and buy a milkshake and fries."

I then drive to McDonald's (After a stop at the ATM to get out a twenty I was saving for the rent or food) and they're closed. They’re fucking CLOSED at 10pm and I just sit there in the parking lot wondering what to do with myself. I think, "I'll just drive around aimlessly, that's what I'll do, I'll drive around aimlessly, I'll explore the city that I live in" but you know what? It's all just closed strip malls and 7-11's and gas stations and shoe stores.

I then think about crashing into the underpass wall of the freeway but I don't want to do that because it will probably just hurt like Hell, not actually do something as productive as kill me. In any case, it will fuck up my insurance rates, which are already fucked up as is. Therefore, I just go home and wish I had some drugs or booze to do, just to relieve the horrible awful boredom of it all. Then I think "I should clean up the apartment, I should be responsible", but I just want to lay there in bed and stare at the ceiling. Later I think that maybe I’m hallucinating all this. Probably not though, if I were hallucinating it would be INTERESTING but it isn't so this must be real. Then after a while I just give up. I head upstairs and I take my useless antidepressants and some Tylenol PM, curl up and as the Tylenol kicks in and I begin to drift off into blessed unconsciousness an “off” smell catches my attention. It’s then I realize that my sheets are dirty because I forgot to take them to the Laundromat.



*I will not comment on the Who plays sports in a Sports Jacket cliche
**The beauty of black and khaki houndstooth patterns becomes obvious when examined from a stain-concealment point of view

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Coming Attractions


I just thought of an awful idea! I will write brief biogrophies of everyone I know...well not everyone...but some! It will be a total disaster! How could I not.

Open Letter to whoever called me a "Liberbal F***" in the comments of one of my blog entries


In my vainty I reviewed a few of the comments a few people left. I came across one which caught my eye and made me smile. In it I am called a "Liberal Fuck". I would like to say, Thank you, I guess that's true enough.

I would also like to compliment you on your lexicon and "Wilde" wit. Cudos to you! I aspire to the razor wit you use like a rapier in my own on life. Alas I fall short.

We can not all be such gifted masters of Language that you, anonymous commenter, clearly are. Keep up the good work and keep reading. I am sure I will have more editions here that will motivate you to the kind of insight you were so kind to share. Your modesty is also admirable. To be able to word your opinion on my trite material that I contribute in this forum and do so “anonymously”* is a testament to self restraint. I would want to take credit for such a zinger!

Feel free to leave such observations in the future; I will not alter the setting on this blog that would disable anonymous comments.

*That may have been something that you had no choice in. You may have had to leave it as an anonymous comment. I have no idea if you are a member of this site or not. That however is entirely beside the point.

Monday, January 23, 2006

"You're so vain"

It's all Vainity.

When I first started to "blog" some time ago my most basic reason for doing so was to have a record of my thoughts and perspectives attached to an exact date. I, at first, didn't want to have anyone read it, it was for me. Vainity.

As I explored this form of on line, public journaling my entries became more sophisticated and my motives changed. It was a way to exspess myself in a way that I was unable to do so in person to person relationships. It became a way of saying "Hey, listen to me!". Vainity.

I knew only a few people would ever actually look at it and even fewer of those who did woulds actually read it. Those I thought would examine my blog entries with a more than casual eye were either close to me or people whom I share a creative writting realtionship with. notice the use of the word my, Vainity.

It occured to me as well about this time I could use this forum to tell certain people things I couldn't otherwise express to them. It would be a perfect way to tell those I have sour feelings for to go fuck themselves. People who other wise would not listen. If I wrote about them they would read and be forced to listen to my perspective. If you include someones name in a essay, journal entry, cartoon or whatever they almost certainly will read it because people are VAIN.

Time moves on.

Tic Toc, Tic Toc.

I found myself writing more sophisticated entries into my various online avenues of self-expression . Ones that did not center completely on me. I was particularly proud of these later ones as I felt that they showed how I was growing as a writer. I was vain in an all new way.

I decided I was proud enough, or at least longed so badly to have my say in a world I felt cheated by, to send out links to friends and family hopeing to have the people who's opinion mattered most to me reveiw the content of my "rawest" work. I knew not everyone would bother but I did expect some response, positive or negative, something. Vainity.

Nothing at all happened. Turns out nobody cares about the rantings of one vain little man. I know I don't, should it surprise me thatothers don't as well?

I knew that was a possiability though what really surprised me and made realize what vain, petty, selfindulgent and arrogant things like this blog are (and a million others like it) was my fiancees reaction and responses to my creations. "You never write about me ." Then in single most appropriate response I have seen to date, she went and created her own blog.

I don't really think that says everthing about the issue nor does it lay out all my mixed feelings on the topic but as I don't expect this to be read does it really matter? If this is truely what I say it is, to myself and others, why should I care? Isn't this supposed to be a soort of diary? Open to anyone who cares to read it but not created specificly as a passive-aggresive battle feild?

Maybe I am just extra crabby because I have given up smoking as of this morning and not because I wanted to. I hear that makes you a little testy. I do not know but at least if I accept the above assertations I am free of the bother of running shit through spellcheck.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Jesus Christ!


If Jesus comes back to Earth as Christian Doctrine proposes, the last thing I bet he wants to see is a cross. A lot of Christians wear crosses around their necks. Do you think if Jesus does in fact come back, he would ever want to see a cross again? It's kind of like going up to Yoko Ono wearing a .38 special handgun pendant to deliver her a copy of “The Catcher in the Rye."

Hope, Dreams and Endurance on the edge of America and in me.



Even in the desert, stars are till able to shine brightly. In fact it is there where they so often shine the brightest. Hope never leaves us I suppose. Not those of us still among the living...metaphorically and otherwise.

I was told when I grew up I could be anything I wanted. My mother and grandmother made sure this concept was implanted in my mind. I don’t remember what my Father had to say on the subject but I don’t think it was contrary to this belief. Pop was and remains a pragmatist.
The Possibilities were wide open from my perspective. I could be a fireman, a policeman, a scientist, an artist, a writer, concert violinist, rock star or even the President of the United States of America. However I should add that it was made clear to me that I could not be The Red Baron or Snoopy when I grew up...My guidance was idealistic in nature not moronic. There were dreams to chase that did not even exist in any time prior to my own and those were open to me as well. According to those whom I looked to for love guidance, food, shelter and toys* I could be an astronaught For the first time in the history of mankind this kind of opportunity was a reality to anyone willing to aspire to it. However like so many kids brought up in the Seventies on a steady diet of westerns, Kung-Fu Theater, medical crusader dramas* , cop thrillers, and especially M*A*S*H*. I always wanted to be the avenging hero A lone voice in the wilderness, fighting corruption and evil wherever I fount it, standing for freedom, truth, and justice the American way.*** To this day a fragment of that desire to be a Paladin remains in my heart of hearts. I still track the remnants of that dream wherever I go, in my endless ride into the setting sun. Now back to you Connie...



*Remember ‘Quincy’?
**"Rock-em Sock-em Robots", and "Crash-em up Derby" in particular
***I was raised in a very Patriotic household and it doesn't hurt that I watched Superman well either.

Insanity is nuts



Why is it when some people cross the fine line that separates the insane from the sane and develop odd delusions so many of them begin to think they’re the Jesus? Why not Buddha?” Particularly in America, where there are more that people resemble Buddha than Jesus*. This broad axiom is especialy true in the more rural parts of this land but by no means exclusive to thse places.

I can hear the conversation in my head if this mental crisis occurred in one the people I just mentioned. One of those with that Buddha body build.

"I am BUDDHA!” Bubba Redneck might declare out of the blue.

“No,You are Bubba!” I would say back to Bubba,I have a duty to say such things being the incredibly good example of perfect sanity that I obviously am. It should also be clear that being the naturally compassionate individual I am, I would want to anchor this poor fellow to reality. The fact I love talking to the insane is entirely beside the point.

I was Bubba but I transfigured. I'm Buddha now.”

“Don’t you mean ‘transcended’? If you are Buddha now that would also mean you are, well, a Buddhist. Buddhist Transcend not Transfigure. Transfiguration is essentially a Christian thing. At least I think so, hell i'm not sure. Thats beside the point, you are not Buddah you are Bubba. If you don't beleive me just take a look at your belt. It clearly reads 'Bubba' and thats you pal. Bubba. I was there when you bought that damn thing at the mall of Georgia last 4th of July.” I inform my friend in this imaginary conversation.

"I could change my belt, all I got do is change the b's to d' and add an h"

"Buddah,..I mean Bubba Buuddhist are strict vegitarians and hold the sanctity of life in very high regard, that means no meat and no hunting"

"I could always eat chicken instead, I like chicken."

"That's meat too Bubba"

"No, it's not, it's a bird."

"That counts bud. Birds are animals, animals are meat. ALL animals even the nasty, stupid, ill tempered filthy ones. Chicken is out that includes Chicken McNuggets too I'm afraid."

"McNuggets too?" Bubba asks me in a deflated tone of voice after a pause in our dialoge.

"Yup" I tell him. My answer is followed by another brief pause after which Bubba's eyes brighten and he smiles. There is a sense of well being and "confidence of purpose" to his demeanor again


“Oh” he would answer.

“That case then I’m Jesus.”





Now back to your regularly scheduled realty, Thank you for tuning in.
*Except in Southern California
Thank you for the inspiration Bill. You always were and will always be cool.

Abortion


Abortion

I'm not a woman and therefore I have little right to say much on feminine issues especially ones concerned with their rights to manage their own bodies. However abortion is not solely a woman’s issue.
Presently, sperm is involved in the human reproductive process, cloning techniques are not at the point where men can be completely omitted from human reproduction. Therefore, I do have a right to hold a strong Opinion on abortion but I do not have any such opinion(s). At least any that are clearly defined or that I am comfortable with. I can't see how anyone who gives the subject any amount of serious contemplation could do that. Even so, I think I have a solution to the abortion issue as far the laws stance and status is concerned not to mention the stance of The U.S. Supior Court on Roe vs Wade issues is as well.
You see, I think if all the children who are born into situations where they are not wanted, and those children born with medical conditions nesitating medical treatment of a critical nature were to be made wards of the state with, and here is the important part, an additional tax applicable to every taxpayer then the issue of abortion would vanish. Why? Because most people are very morale until they literally have to put their money where their proverbial mouth is. I find it funny how scripture and moral dictates are subject to change when they don't fit our comfortable lifestyle. Adjustment become nesassry to the absolutes of morality when they conflict with application into standard moral codes for daily living more so when they strick folks where it stings the most, their personal pocket books. It's at that point most people throw up their hands, and absolve themselves and "Leave it up to God". Yes, when you "Bring it home" an otherwise clearly defined things get a bit murky and the issue is sundenly quite complex. That applies to me as well my dear friends, foes*, and family...oh yeah and you Romans their in the back too. Where did ya'll come from anyway?
A better idea still comes from Bill Hicks**. Bills idea is as follows:

“I tell ya how you can solve this abortion issue right now. Ready? Those unwanted babies that single moms leave in alleys and in dumpsters? Leave about 12 of those on the steps of The Supreme Court. This is over. Like that. "You guys said we had to have them? Then you guys...FUCKING RAISE 'EM." "Raise 'em then, you fucking raise 'em. YOU raise 'em. You said I had to have it? Then it's yours. Fuck. It's yours..Take it"

*I hope I don't have any of those

**Thank you for the insperation Bill.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Al Gores speach on January 16, 2006


Former Vice President Al Gore delivered a speech yesterday, January 15, 2006. I am posting it here in my blog as it one of the better speeches I have read lately. I read a lot of speeches from a wide variety of people with an equally wide diversity of beliefs, viewpoints and political agendas, I love politics and the written word, what can I say?
I would like to thank a new friend, Amelia S. of Olympia (I will withhold her complete last name as that is the polite thing to do and I do not know if she would want it spelled out in a public forum such as this)In addition to the copy below the speech is available at: http://www.alternet.org/rights/30905/

I did not vote for Mr. Gore in 2000 and I regret that these days as my political leanings have come full circle in my life. Once very liberal, then more middle of the road with occasional conservative inclinations of note, lost and ambivalent for a while and now once again I suppose I fit the definition of a liberal again.

My singular vote in the election debacles of 2000 would have obviously not made any difference in the Presidential election that year, but now I have to live with my decision to vote for George Bush that year.

How strange it must seem to those of you have known me since prior to that time that I would have such a dramatic change of attitude over a relatively short span of years. Keep in mind I was a very liberal young man and that I was never a republican or even anything that could be classified as conservative. My views have always been liberal if they must be pigeon holed at all. In 2000 I was a new father and found myself in the unlikely (For me) corporate, white collar world of accounting and purchasing (Initially with Gulf South Medical Supply and then with National Scientific Company). I had delicate and selfish interest I wished protected (I was a consumed by a combination of self absorbed pride and fears of failure as I viewed the paper kingdom I had constructed in my life). A strong military and a stable economy are essentially the only way to maintain the security I desired for my family my friends my son and of course my self. I felt at the time Bush could at least provide some of this as he was likely to maintain the war economy America has survived on since World War II.

How strange it must seem to those of you who have only known me post that time that I would vote for such a man as George Bush.

How strange it must seem if you don’t know me at all that I think you would care about any of this.
Err, why are you reading this then?

Funny old world.

The events of September 2001 revealed the price of maintaining an Empire. I was of course as outraged by the terrorist attacks as was any human being with an undamaged brain would be. They were clearly unwarranted, unjustifiable murder. Blood, I suppose from a casual glance at human history, must always be answered for with more blood. This does not mean that a free hand should be given to those in power to execute revenge especially when the deeper motives for their actions lay within their bank accounts and in the notes of concealed economic agendas.

I look forward to the day when we can all settle our differences with a game of rock-um-sock-um robots. That silly wish is not going to be granted anytime soon.

The wrath of the most powerful nation this Earth has ever known has been unleashed upon the world. Under red white and blue flags of blind brainless patriotism we given empowerment to an Administration who apparently thinks the American people are as dumb as there figurehead leader, Mr. Bush, appears to be . Perhaps I speak to harshly of the American people’s intellect. I don’t think it stupidity that enables the Bush Junta but rather fear. I was personally terrified after the 911 attacks. That is what they were…an attack, an act of war not just on the citizens and government of the United States but an attack on the sanctity of life, an abomination against the right to BE. Now we are sacrificing our freedoms and civil liberties in the name of justice, false justice. We have an administration in the White House that by manipulating the fear and outrage of a wounded people is endangering the very essence of what is truly American.

President Bush’s administration is blatantly placing itself above the law of the land and disregarding the Constitution of the United State of America. What’s next from these dime store Nazis? They will be wiping their asses with the Constitution if we let them before all is said and done.

Mr. Bush himself is not solely responsible. It is rare in history that one man is able to exert such power and influence. While, yes, it is true that a casual examination of any high school social textbook on the subject will reveal a few notable exceptions to this generality it is also true that in those cases one will almost always find a grand intelligence deep with in the person involved. This intelligence is normally paired with an almost supernatural charisma. President Bush is not such a person. He has neither intelligence nor charisma. He is not a very bright or clever man; this much is painfully obvious, even to many of his supporters (Just as Mr. Clintons glaring faults were to his). All he has is the reputation of being a boot wearing, shit kicking Texan and a few clever cowboys on his side.

President Bush is incapable using a dictionary and could never be the master mind of any plot more fiendish than your standard Fraternity prank (He is a Frat boy after all). Like all too many leaders before him he is a figurehead for the interest of the all powerful dollar.

American secretly and subconsciously craves a King and Mr. Bush fulfills that role magnificently. If you doubt my conjecture on that matter I need only point out Ted Kennedy, what on earth is in the water of Massachusetts? Teddy boy isn’t the only person there hitting the sauce a little on the heavy side…at least on election Tuesdays.

Enough about Mr. Bush lets move back to my favorite subject, me.

I have grown, changed many times over and followed numerous different paths in the span of my thirty seven years, some wiser than others (To say the very least), I continue to do so. My life has changed drastically over the past six years and the experiences incurred and things I have witnessed during that time have changed me. I do not regret that. I believe myself to be a vastly better person than I once was. Isn’t that what is supposed to happen as we grow older?

I did not like Mr. Gore very much in 2000. I couldn’t say if I like him or not today. I have never met the man. I can say I like his speech. I can also say I would vote for him if he ever decided to run for the Presidential Office again which is more than I would say for most of the democratic choices offered. John Kerry being a particularly good example of an individual I simply could not give my support too. I don’t vote along a party line and refuse to subscribe to any particular fashion or politic. I vote on issues and individuals and issues. That is not unique, many others do so as well and I expect our voices will become will be heard in elections both this year and in 2008. It is not enough; we can not sit quietly by and let these bucolic bullies trick us out of our rights and freedoms. My vote in 2004 went to a hopeless cause but that is alright, at least I can look at myself in the mirror and shave each morning…okay each third fourth or fifth morning. My vote in 2008 will shout my outrage at the betrayal I feel at the outrageous things done in my name as an American citizen.
This is my Nation too Mr. Bush and while I cannot unseat you from your thieved appointment as my President I will not go quietly into that good night . I apologize about the Dylan Thomas semi-quotation thing there, I couldn’t help my self. You might appreciate this more if you could see me actually writing this. I stood up from my computer and passionately belted out that last line to an audience wholly consisting of my cat

Whew, I think I might have the vapors. I need a breath of fresh air, a cigarette and a Diet Coke.

In conclusion I wish to state thatI am a patriot, if you know me then you know that as well. I revere the American Constitution as the greatest political document ever written to date. It is a document engineered to evolve and adapt along with the people for whom it was constructed. This exemplifies the great foresight and brilliance of its authors. We cannot let a greedy administration harm it. If they see a problem or flaw in its pages there are procedures to alter it.
The Bush administration cannot be allowed to continue to blithely ignore OUR Constitution. Nor should they be allowed to stand above the law of the Nation that derives its character, identity and very existence from same said Constitution.
Well enough of my ranting and rambling, please read Mr. Gores speech and consider what he has to say. The man says it better and more eloquently than I ever could.

Following is the text of the speech delivered by Al Gore in Washington, D.C. on January 16. Mr. Gore was introduced by former Republican congressman Bob Barr, an arch-conservative advocate of privacy rights.

"Congressman Barr and I have disagreed many times over the years, but we have joined together today with thousands of our fellow citizens -- Democrats and Republicans alike -- to express our shared concern that America's Constitution is in grave danger.
In spite of our differences over ideology and politics, we are in strong agreement that the American values we hold most dear have been placed at serious risk by the unprecedented claims of the Administration to a truly breathtaking expansion of executive power.
As we begin this new year, the Executive Branch of our government has been caught eavesdropping on huge numbers of American citizens and has brazenly declared that it has the unilateral right to continue without regard to the established law enacted by Congress to prevent such abuses.
It is imperative that respect for the rule of law be restored.
So, many of us have come here to Constitution Hall to sound an alarm and call upon our fellow citizens to put aside partisan differences and join with us in demanding that our Constitution be defended and preserved.
It is appropriate that we make this appeal on the day our nation has set aside to honor the life and legacy of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., who challenged America to breathe new life into our oldest values by extending its promise to all our people.
On this particular Martin Luther King Day, it is especially important to recall that for the last several years of his life, Dr. King was illegally wiretapped -- one of hundreds of thousands of Americans whose private communications were intercepted by the U.S. government during this period.
The FBI privately called King the "most dangerous and effective negro leader in the country" and vowed to "take him off his pedestal." The government even attempted to destroy his marriage and blackmail him into committing suicide.
This campaign continued until Dr. King's murder. The discovery that the FBI conducted a long-running and extensive campaign of secret electronic surveillance designed to infiltrate the inner workings of the Southern Christian Leadership Conference, and to learn the most intimate details of Dr. King's life, helped to convince Congress to enact restrictions on wiretapping.
The result was the Foreign Intelligence and Surveillance Act (FISA), which was enacted expressly to ensure that foreign intelligence surveillance would be presented to an impartial judge to verify that there is a sufficient cause for the surveillance. I voted for that law during my first term in Congress and for almost thirty years the system has proven a workable and valued means of according a level of protection for private citizens, while permitting foreign surveillance to continue.
Yet, just one month ago, Americans awoke to the shocking news that in spite of this long settled law, the Executive Branch has been secretly spying on large numbers of Americans for the last four years and eavesdropping on "large volumes of telephone calls, email messages, and other Internet traffic inside the United States." The New York Times reported that the President decided to launch this massive eavesdropping program "without search warrants or any new laws that would permit such domestic intelligence collection."
During the period when this eavesdropping was still secret, the President went out of his way to reassure the American people on more than one occasion that, of course, judicial permission is required for any government spying on American citizens and that, of course, these constitutional safeguards were still in place.
But surprisingly, the President's soothing statements turned out to be false. Moreover, as soon as this massive domestic spying program was uncovered by the press, the President not only confirmed that the story was true, but also declared that he has no intention of bringing these wholesale invasions of privacy to an end.
At present, we still have much to learn about the NSA's domestic surveillance. What we do know about this pervasive wiretapping virtually compels the conclusion that the President of the United States has been breaking the law repeatedly and persistently.
A president who breaks the law is a threat to the very structure of our government. Our Founding Fathers were adamant that they had established a government of laws and not men. Indeed, they recognized that the structure of government they had enshrined in our Constitution -- our system of checks and balances -- was designed with a central purpose of ensuring that it would govern through the rule of law. As John Adams said: "The executive shall never exercise the legislative and judicial powers, or either of them, to the end that it may be a government of laws and not of men."
An executive who arrogates to himself the power to ignore the legitimate legislative directives of the Congress or to act free of the check of the judiciary becomes the central threat that the Founders sought to nullify in the Constitution -- an all-powerful executive too reminiscent of the King from whom they had broken free. In the words of James Madison, "the accumulation of all powers, legislative, executive, and judiciary, in the same hands, whether of one, a few, or many, and whether hereditary, self-appointed, or elective, may justly be pronounced the very definition of tyranny."
Thomas Paine, whose pamphlet, "On Common Sense" ignited the American Revolution, succinctly described America's alternative. Here, he said, we intended to make certain that "the law is king."
Vigilant adherence to the rule of law strengthens our democracy and strengthens America. It ensures that those who govern us operate within our constitutional structure, which means that our democratic institutions play their indispensable role in shaping policy and determining the direction of our nation. It means that the people of this nation ultimately determine its course and not executive officials operating in secret without constraint.
The rule of law makes us stronger by ensuring that decisions will be tested, studied, reviewed and examined through the processes of government that are designed to improve policy. And the knowledge that they will be reviewed prevents over-reaching and checks the accretion of power.
A commitment to openness, truthfulness and accountability also helps our country avoid many serious mistakes. Recently, for example, we learned from recently classified declassified documents that the Gulf of Tonkin Resolution, which authorized the tragic Vietnam war, was actually based on false information. We now know that the decision by Congress to authorize the Iraq War, 38 years later, was also based on false information. America would have been better off knowing the truth and avoiding both of these colossal mistakes in our history. Following the rule of law makes us safer, not more vulnerable.
The President and I agree on one thing. The threat from terrorism is all too real. There is simply no question that we continue to face new challenges in the wake of the attack on September 11th and that we must be ever-vigilant in protecting our citizens from harm.
Where we disagree is that we have to break the law or sacrifice our system of government to protect Americans from terrorism. In fact, doing so makes us weaker and more vulnerable.
Once violated, the rule of law is in danger. Unless stopped, lawlessness grows. The greater the power of the executive grows, the more difficult it becomes for the other branches to perform their constitutional roles. As the executive acts outside its constitutionally prescribed role and is able to control access to information that would expose its actions, it becomes increasingly difficult for the other branches to police it. Once that ability is lost, democracy itself is threatened and we become a government of men and not laws.
The President's men have minced words about America's laws. The Attorney General openly conceded that the "kind of surveillance" we now know they have been conducting requires a court order unless authorized by statute. The Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Act self-evidently does not authorize what the NSA has been doing, and no one inside or outside the Administration claims that it does. Incredibly, the Administration claims instead that the surveillance was implicitly authorized when Congress voted to use force against those who attacked us on September 11th.
This argument just does not hold any water. Without getting into the legal intricacies, it faces a number of embarrassing facts. First, another admission by the Attorney General: he concedes that the Administration knew that the NSA project was prohibited by existing law and that they consulted with some members of Congress about changing the statute. Gonzalez says that they were told this probably would not be possible. So how can they now argue that the Authorization for the Use of Military Force somehow implicitly authorized it all along? Second, when the Authorization was being debated, the Administration did in fact seek to have language inserted in it that would have authorized them to use military force domestically -- and the Congress did not agree. Senator Ted Stevens and Representative Jim McGovern, among others, made statements during the Authorization debate clearly restating that that Authorization did not operate domestically.
When President Bush failed to convince Congress to give him all the power he wanted when they passed the AUMF, he secretly assumed that power anyway, as if congressional authorization was a useless bother. But as Justice Frankfurter once wrote: "To find authority so explicitly withheld is not merely to disregard in a particular instance the clear will of Congress. It is to disrespect the whole legislative process and the constitutional division of authority between President and Congress."
This is precisely the "disrespect" for the law that the Supreme Court struck down in the steel seizure case.
It is this same disrespect for America's Constitution which has now brought our republic to the brink of a dangerous breach in the fabric of the Constitution. And the disrespect embodied in these apparent mass violations of the law is part of a larger pattern of seeming indifference to the Constitution that is deeply troubling to millions of Americans in both political parties.
For example, the President has also declared that he has a heretofore unrecognized inherent power to seize and imprison any American citizen that he alone determines to be a threat to our nation, and that, notwithstanding his American citizenship, the person imprisoned has no right to talk with a lawyer -- even to argue that the President or his appointees have made a mistake and imprisoned the wrong person.
The President claims that he can imprison American citizens indefinitely for the rest of their lives without an arrest warrant, without notifying them about what charges have been filed against them, and without informing their families that they have been imprisoned.
At the same time, the Executive Branch has claimed a previously unrecognized authority to mistreat prisoners in its custody in ways that plainly constitute torture in a pattern that has now been documented in U.S. facilities located in several countries around the world.
Over 100 of these captives have reportedly died while being tortured by Executive Branch interrogators and many more have been broken and humiliated. In the notorious Abu Ghraib prison, investigators who documented the pattern of torture estimated that more than 90 percent of the victims were innocent of any charges.
This shameful exercise of power overturns a set of principles that our nation has observed since General Washington first enunciated them during our Revolutionary War and has been observed by every president since then -- until now. These practices violate the Geneva Conventions and the International Convention Against Torture, not to mention our own laws against torture.
The President has also claimed that he has the authority to kidnap individuals in foreign countries and deliver them for imprisonment and interrogation on our behalf by autocratic regimes in nations that are infamous for the cruelty of their techniques for torture.
Some of our traditional allies have been shocked by these new practices on the part of our nation. The British Ambassador to Uzbekistan -- one of those nations with the worst reputations for torture in its prisons -- registered a complaint to his home office about the senselessness and cruelty of the new U.S. practice: "This material is useless -- we are selling our souls for dross. It is in fact positively harmful."
Can it be true that any president really has such powers under our Constitution? If the answer is "yes" then under the theory by which these acts are committed, are there any acts that can on their face be prohibited? If the President has the inherent authority to eavesdrop, imprison citizens on his own declaration, kidnap and torture, then what can't he do?
The Dean of Yale Law School, Harold Koh, said after analyzing the Executive Branch's claims of these previously unrecognized powers: "If the President has commander-in-chief power to commit torture, he has the power to commit genocide, to sanction slavery, to promote apartheid, to license summary execution."
The fact that our normal safeguards have thus far failed to contain this unprecedented expansion of executive power is deeply troubling. This failure is due in part to the fact that the Executive Branch has followed a determined strategy of obfuscating, delaying, withholding information, appearing to yield but then refusing to do so and dissembling in order to frustrate the efforts of the legislative and judicial branches to restore our constitutional balance.
For example, after appearing to support legislation sponsored by John McCain to stop the continuation of torture, the President declared in the act of signing the bill that he reserved the right not to comply with it.
Similarly, the Executive Branch claimed that it could unilaterally imprison American citizens without giving them access to review by any tribunal. The Supreme Court disagreed, but the President engaged in legal maneuvers designed to prevent the Court from providing meaningful content to the rights of its citizens.
A conservative jurist on the Fourth Circuit Court of Appeals wrote that the Executive Branch's handling of one such case seemed to involve the sudden abandonment of principle "at substantial cost to the government's credibility before the courts."
As a result of its unprecedented claim of new unilateral power, the Executive Branch has now put our constitutional design at grave risk. The stakes for America's representative democracy are far higher than has been generally recognized.
These claims must be rejected and a healthy balance of power restored to our Republic. Otherwise, the fundamental nature of our democracy may well undergo a radical transformation.
For more than two centuries, America's freedoms have been preserved in part by our founders' wise decision to separate the aggregate power of our government into three co-equal branches, each of which serves to check and balance the power of the other two.
On more than a few occasions, the dynamic interaction among all three branches has resulted in collisions and temporary impasses that create what are invariably labeled "constitutional crises." These crises have often been dangerous and uncertain times for our Republic. But in each such case so far, we have found a resolution of the crisis by renewing our common agreement to live under the rule of law.
The principle alternative to democracy throughout history has been the consolidation of virtually all state power in the hands of a single strongman or small group who together exercise that power without the informed consent of the governed.
It was in revolt against just such a regime, after all, that America was founded. When Lincoln declared at the time of our greatest crisis that the ultimate question being decided in the Civil War was "whether that nation, or any nation so conceived, and so dedicated, can long endure," he was not only saving our union but also was recognizing the fact that democracies are rare in history. And when they fail, as did Athens and the Roman Republic upon whose designs our founders drew heavily, what emerges in their place is another strongman regime.
There have of course been other periods of American history when the Executive Branch claimed new powers that were later seen as excessive and mistaken. Our second president, John Adams, passed the infamous Alien and Sedition Acts and sought to silence and imprison critics and political opponents.
When his successor, Thomas Jefferson, eliminated the abuses he said: "[The essential principles of our Government] form the bright constellation which has gone before us and guided our steps through an age of revolution and reformation... [S]hould we wander from them in moments of error or of alarm, let us hasten to retrace our steps and to regain the road which alone leads to peace, liberty and safety."
Our greatest President, Abraham Lincoln, suspended habeas corpus during the Civil War. Some of the worst abuses prior to those of the current administration were committed by President Wilson during and after WWI with the notorious Red Scare and Palmer Raids. The internment of Japanese Americans during WWII marked a low point for the respect of individual rights at the hands of the executive. And, during the Vietnam War, the notorious COINTELPRO program was part and parcel of the abuses experienced by Dr. King and thousands of others.
But in each of these cases, when the conflict and turmoil subsided, the country recovered its equilibrium and absorbed the lessons learned in a recurring cycle of excess and regret.
There are reasons for concern this time around that conditions may be changing and that the cycle may not repeat itself. For one thing, we have for decades been witnessing the slow and steady accumulation of presidential power. In a global environment of nuclear weapons and cold war tensions, Congress and the American people accepted ever enlarging spheres of presidential initiative to conduct intelligence and counter intelligence activities and to allocate our military forces on the global stage. When military force has been used as an instrument of foreign policy or in response to humanitarian demands, it has almost always been as the result of presidential initiative and leadership. As Justice Frankfurter wrote in the Steel Seizure Case, "The accretion of dangerous power does not come in a day. It does come, however slowly, from the generative force of unchecked disregard of the restrictions that fence in even the most disinterested assertion of authority."
A second reason to believe we may be experiencing something new is that we are told by the Administration that the war footing upon which he has tried to place the country is going to "last for the rest of our lives." So we are told that the conditions of national threat that have been used by other Presidents to justify arrogations of power will persist in near perpetuity.
Third, we need to be aware of the advances in eavesdropping and surveillance technologies with their capacity to sweep up and analyze enormous quantities of information and to mine it for intelligence. This adds significant vulnerability to the privacy and freedom of enormous numbers of innocent people at the same time as the potential power of those technologies. These techologies have the potential for shifting the balance of power between the apparatus of the state and the freedom of the individual in ways both subtle and profound.
Don't misunderstand me: the threat of additional terror strikes is all too real and their concerted efforts to acquire weapons of mass destruction does create a real imperative to exercise the powers of the Executive Branch with swiftness and agility. Moreover, there is in fact an inherent power that is conferred by the Constitution to the President to take unilateral action to protect the nation from a sudden and immediate threat, but it is simply not possible to precisely define in legalistic terms exactly when that power is appropriate and when it is not.
But the existence of that inherent power cannot be used to justify a gross and excessive power grab lasting for years that produces a serious imbalance in the relationship between the executive and the other two branches of government.
There is a final reason to worry that we may be experiencing something more than just another cycle of overreach and regret. This Administration has come to power in the thrall of a legal theory that aims to convince us that this excessive concentration of presidential authority is exactly what our Constitution intended.
This legal theory, which its proponents call the theory of the unitary executive but which is more accurately described as the unilateral executive, threatens to expand the president's powers until the contours of the constitution that the Framers actually gave us become obliterated beyond all recognition. Under this theory, the President's authority when acting as Commander-in-Chief or when making foreign policy cannot be reviewed by the judiciary or checked by Congress. President Bush has pushed the implications of this idea to its maximum by continually stressing his role as Commander-in-Chief, invoking it has frequently as he can, conflating it with his other roles, domestic and foreign. When added to the idea that we have entered a perpetual state of war, the implications of this theory stretch quite literally as far into the future as we can imagine.
This effort to rework America's carefully balanced constitutional design into a lopsided structure dominated by an all powerful Executive Branch with a subservient Congress and judiciary is -- ironically -- accompanied by an effort by the same administration to rework America's foreign policy from one that is based primarily on U.S. moral authority into one that is based on a misguided and self-defeating effort to establish dominance in the world.
The common denominator seems to be based on an instinct to intimidate and control.
This same pattern has characterized the effort to silence dissenting views within the Executive Branch, to censor information that may be inconsistent with its stated ideological goals, and to demand conformity from all Executive Branch employees.
For example, CIA analysts who strongly disagreed with the White House assertion that Osama bin Laden was linked to Saddam Hussein found themselves under pressure at work and became fearful of losing promotions and salary increases.
Ironically, that is exactly what happened to FBI officials in the 1960s who disagreed with J. Edgar Hoover's view that Dr. King was closely connected to Communists. The head of the FBI's domestic intelligence division said that his effort to tell the truth about King's innocence of the charge resulted in he and his colleagues becoming isolated and pressured. "It was evident that we had to change our ways or we would all be out on the street. ... The men and I discussed how to get out of trouble. To be in trouble with Mr. Hoover was a serious matter. These men were trying to buy homes, mortgages on homes, children in school. They lived in fear of getting transferred, losing money on their homes, as they usually did. ... so they wanted another memorandum written to get us out of the trouble that we were in."
The Constitution's framers understood this dilemma as well, as Alexander Hamilton put it, "a power over a man's support is a power over his will." (Federalist No. 73)
Soon, there was no more difference of opinion within the FBI. The false accusation became the unanimous view. In exactly the same way, George Tenet's CIA eventually joined in endorsing a manifestly false view that there was a linkage between al Qaeda and the government of Iraq.
In the words of George Orwell: "We are all capable of believing things which we know to be untrue, and then, when we are finally proved wrong, impudently twisting the facts so as to show that we were right. Intellectually, it is possible to carry on this process for an indefinite time: the only check on it is that sooner or later a false belief bumps up against solid reality, usually on a battlefield."
Whenever power is unchecked and unaccountable it almost inevitably leads to mistakes and abuses. In the absence of rigorous accountability, incompetence flourishes. Dishonesty is encouraged and rewarded.
Last week, for example, Vice President Cheney attempted to defend the Administration's eavesdropping on American citizens by saying that if it had conducted this program prior to 9/11, they would have found out the names of some of the hijackers.
Tragically, he apparently still doesn't know that the Administration did in fact have the names of at least 2 of the hijackers well before 9/11 and had available to them information that could have easily led to the identification of most of the other hijackers. And yet, because of incompetence in the handling of this information, it was never used to protect the American people.
It is often the case that an Executive Branch beguiled by the pursuit of unchecked power responds to its own mistakes by reflexively proposing that it be given still more power. Often, the request itself it used to mask accountability for mistakes in the use of power it already has.
Moreover, if the pattern of practice begun by this Administration is not challenged, it may well become a permanent part of the American system. Many conservatives have pointed out that granting unchecked power to this President means that the next President will have unchecked power as well. And the next President may be someone whose values and belief you do not trust. And this is why Republicans as well as Democrats should be concerned with what this President has done. If this President's attempt to dramatically expand executive power goes unquestioned, our constitutional design of checks and balances will be lost. And the next President or some future President will be able, in the name of national security, to restrict our liberties in a way the framers never would have thought possible.
The same instinct to expand its power and to establish dominance characterizes the relationship between this Administration and the courts and the Congress.
In a properly functioning system, the Judicial Branch would serve as the constitutional umpire to ensure that the branches of government observed their proper spheres of authority, observed civil liberties and adhered to the rule of law. Unfortunately, the unilateral executive has tried hard to thwart the ability of the judiciary to call balls and strikes by keeping controversies out of its hands -- notably those challenging its ability to detain individuals without legal process -- by appointing judges who will be deferential to its exercise of power and by its support of assaults on the independence of the third branch.
The President's decision to ignore FISA was a direct assault on the power of the judges who sit on that court. Congress established the FISA court precisely to be a check on executive power to wiretap. Yet, to ensure that the court could not function as a check on executive power, the President simply did not take matters to it and did not let the court know that it was being bypassed.
The President's judicial appointments are clearly designed to ensure that the courts will not serve as an effective check on executive power. As we have all learned, Judge Alito is a longtime supporter of a powerful executive -- a supporter of the so-called unitary executive, which is more properly called the unilateral executive. Whether you support his confirmation or not -- and I do not -- we must all agree that he will not vote as an effective check on the expansion of executive power. Likewise, Chief Justice Roberts has made plain his deference to the expansion of executive power through his support of judicial deference to executive agency rulemaking.
And the Administration has supported the assault on judicial independence that has been conducted largely in Congress. That assault includes a threat by the Republican majority in the Senate to permanently change the rules to eliminate the right of the minority to engage in extended debate of the President's judicial nominees. The assault has extended to legislative efforts to curtail the jurisdiction of courts in matters ranging from habeas corpus to the pledge of allegiance. In short, the Administration has demonstrated its contempt for the judicial role and sought to evade judicial review of its actions at every turn.
But the most serious damage has been done to the legislative branch. The sharp decline of congressional power and autonomy in recent years has been almost as shocking as the efforts by the Executive Branch to attain a massive expansion of its power.
I was elected to Congress in 1976 and served eight years in the house, 8 years in the Senate and presided over the Senate for 8 years as Vice President. As a young man, I saw the Congress first hand as the son of a Senator. My father was elected to Congress in 1938, 10 years before I was born, and left the Senate in 1971.
The Congress we have today is unrecognizable compared to the one in which my father served. There are many distinguished Senators and Congressmen serving today. I am honored that some of them are here in this hall. But the legislative branch of government under its current leadership now operates as if it is entirely subservient to the Executive Branch.
Moreover, too many Members of the House and Senate now feel compelled to spend a majority of their time not in thoughtful debate of the issues, but raising money to purchase 30 second TV commercials.
There have now been two or three generations of congressmen who don't really know what an oversight hearing is. In the 70s and 80s, the oversight hearings in which my colleagues and I participated held the feet of the Executive Branch to the fire -- no matter which party was in power. Yet oversight is almost unknown in the Congress today.
The role of authorization committees has declined into insignificance. The 13 annual appropriation bills are hardly ever actually passed anymore. Everything is lumped into a single giant measure that is not even available for Members of Congress to read before they vote on it.
Members of the minority party are now routinely excluded from conference committees, and amendments are routinely not allowed during floor consideration of legislation.
In the United States Senate, which used to pride itself on being the "greatest deliberative body in the world," meaningful debate is now a rarity. Even on the eve of the fateful vote to authorize the invasion of Iraq, Senator Robert Byrd famously asked: "Why is this chamber empty?"
In the House of Representatives, the number who face a genuinely competitive election contest every two years is typically less than a dozen out of 435.
And too many incumbents have come to believe that the key to continued access to the money for re-election is to stay on the good side of those who have the money to give; and, in the case of the majority party, the whole process is largely controlled by the incumbent president and his political organization.
So the willingness of Congress to challenge the Administration is further limited when the same party controls both Congress and the Executive Branch.
The Executive Branch, time and again, has co-opted Congress' role, and often Congress has been a willing accomplice in the surrender of its own power.
Look for example at the Congressional role in "overseeing" this massive four year eavesdropping campaign that on its face seemed so clearly to violate the Bill of Rights. The President says he informed Congress, but what he really means is that he talked with the chairman and ranking member of the House and Senate intelligence committees and the top leaders of the House and Senate. This small group, in turn, claimed that they were not given the full facts, though at least one of the intelligence committee leaders handwrote a letter of concern to VP Cheney and placed a copy in his own safe.
Though I sympathize with the awkward position in which these men and women were placed, I cannot disagree with the Liberty Coalition when it says that Democrats as well as Republicans in the Congress must share the blame for not taking action to protest and seek to prevent what they consider a grossly unconstitutional program.
Moreover, in the Congress as a whole-both House and Senate-the enhanced role of money in the re-election process, coupled with the sharply diminished role for reasoned deliberation and debate, has produced an atmosphere conducive to pervasive institutionalized corruption.
The Abramoff scandal is but the tip of a giant iceberg that threatens the integrity of the entire legislative branch of government.
It is the pitiful state of our legislative branch which primarily explains the failure of our vaunted checks and balances to prevent the dangerous overreach by our Executive Branch which now threatens a radical transformation of the American system.
I call upon Democratic and Republican members of Congress today to uphold your oath of office and defend the Constitution. Stop going along to get along. Start acting like the independent and co-equal branch of government you're supposed to be.
But there is yet another Constitutional player whose pulse must be taken and whose role must be examined in order to understand the dangerous imbalance that has emerged with the efforts by the Executive Branch to dominate our constitutional system.
We the people are -- collectively -- still the key to the survival of America's democracy. We -- as Lincoln put it, "[e]ven we here" -- must examine our own role as citizens in allowing and not preventing the shocking decay and degradation of our democracy.
Thomas Jefferson said: "An informed citizenry is the only true repository of the public will."
The revolutionary departure on which the idea of America was based was the audacious belief that people can govern themselves and responsibly exercise the ultimate authority in self-government. This insight proceeded inevitably from the bedrock principle articulated by the Enlightenment philosopher John Locke: "All just power is derived from the consent of the governed."
The intricate and carefully balanced constitutional system that is now in such danger was created with the full and widespread participation of the population as a whole. The Federalist Papers were, back in the day, widely read newspaper essays, and they represented only one of twenty-four series of essays that crowded the vibrant marketplace of ideas in which farmers and shopkeepers recapitulated the debates that played out so fruitfully in Philadelphia.
Indeed, when the Convention had done its best, it was the people -- in their various States -- that refused to confirm the result until, at their insistence, the Bill of Rights was made integral to the document sent forward for ratification.
And it is "We the people" who must now find once again the ability we once had to play an integral role in saving our Constitution.
And here there is cause for both concern and great hope. The age of printed pamphlets and political essays has long since been replaced by television -- a distracting and absorbing medium which sees determined to entertain and sell more than it informs and educates.
Lincoln's memorable call during the Civil War is applicable in a new way to our dilemma today: "We must disenthrall ourselves, and then we shall save our country."
Forty years have passed since the majority of Americans adopted television as their principal source of information. Its dominance has become so extensive that virtually all significant political communication now takes place within the confines of flickering 30-second television advertisements.
And the political economy supported by these short but expensive television ads is as different from the vibrant politics of America's first century as those politics were different from the feudalism which thrived on the ignorance of the masses of people in the Dark Ages.
The constricted role of ideas in the American political system today has encouraged efforts by the Executive Branch to control the flow of information as a means of controlling the outcome of important decisions that still lie in the hands of the people.
The Administration vigorously asserts its power to maintain the secrecy of its operations. After all, the other branches can't check an abuse of power if they don't know it is happening.
For example, when the Administration was attempting to persuade Congress to enact the Medicare prescription drug benefit, many in the House and Senate raised concerns about the cost and design of the program. But, rather than engaging in open debate on the basis of factual data, the Administration withheld facts and prevented the Congress from hearing testimony that it sought from the principal administration expert who had compiled information showing in advance of the vote that indeed the true cost estimates were far higher than the numbers given to Congress by the President.
Deprived of that information, and believing the false numbers given to it instead, the Congress approved the program. Tragically, the entire initiative is now collapsing -- all over the country -- with the Administration making an appeal just this weekend to major insurance companies to volunteer to bail it out.
To take another example, scientific warnings about the catastrophic consequences of unchecked global warming were censored by a political appointee in the White House who had no scientific training. And today one of the leading scientific experts on global warming in NASA has been ordered not to talk to members of the press and to keep a careful log of everyone he meets with so that the Executive Branch can monitor and control his discussions of global warming.
One of the other ways the Administration has tried to control the flow of information is by consistently resorting to the language and politics of fear in order to short-circuit the debate and drive its agenda forward without regard to the evidence or the public interest. As President Eisenhower said, "Any who act as if freedom's defenses are to be found in suppression and suspicion and fear confess a doctrine that is alien to America."
Fear drives out reason. Fear suppresses the politics of discourse and opens the door to the politics of destruction. Justice Brandeis once wrote: "Men feared witches and burnt women."
The founders of our country faced dire threats. If they failed in their endeavors, they would have been hung as traitors. The very existence of our country was at risk.
Yet, in the teeth of those dangers, they insisted on establishing the Bill of Rights.
Is our Congress today in more danger than were their predecessors when the British army was marching on the Capitol? Is the world more dangerous than when we faced an ideological enemy with tens of thousands of missiles poised to be launched against us and annihilate our country at a moment's notice? Is America in more danger now than when we faced worldwide fascism on the march -- when our fathers fought and won two World Wars simultaneously?
It is simply an insult to those who came before us and sacrificed so much on our behalf to imply that we have more to be fearful of than they. Yet they faithfully protected our freedoms and now it is up to us to do the same.
We have a duty as Americans to defend our citizens' right not only to life but also to liberty and the pursuit of happiness. It is therefore vital in our current circumstances that immediate steps be taken to safeguard our Constitution against the present danger posed by the intrusive overreaching on the part of the Executive Branch and the President's apparent belief that he need not live under the rule of law.
I endorse the words of Bob Barr, when he said, "The President has dared the American people to do something about it. For the sake of the Constitution, I hope they will."
A special counsel should immediately be appointed by the Attorney General to remedy the obvious conflict of interest that prevents him from investigating what many believe are serious violations of law by the President. We have had a fresh demonstration of how an independent investigation by a special counsel with integrity can rebuild confidence in our system of justice. Patrick Fitzgerald has, by all accounts, shown neither fear nor favor in pursuing allegations that the Executive Branch has violated other laws.
Republican as well as Democratic members of Congress should support the bipartisan call of the Liberty Coalition for the appointment of a special counsel to pursue the criminal issues raised by warrantless wiretapping of Americans by the President.
Second, new whistleblower protections should immediately be established for members of the Executive Branch who report evidence of wrongdoing -- especially where it involves the abuse of Executive Branch authority in the sensitive areas of national security.
Third, both Houses of Congress should hold comprehensive -- and not just superficial -- hearings into these serious allegations of criminal behavior on the part of the President. And, they should follow the evidence wherever it leads.
Fourth, the extensive new powers requested by the Executive Branch in its proposal to extend and enlarge the Patriot Act should, under no circumstances be granted, unless and until there are adequate and enforceable safeguards to protect the Constitution and the rights of the American people against the kinds of abuses that have so recently been revealed.
Fifth, any telecommunications company that has provided the government with access to private information concerning the communications of Americans without a proper warrant should immediately cease and desist their complicity in this apparently illegal invasion of the privacy of American citizens.
Freedom of communication is an essential prerequisite for the restoration of the health of our democracy.
It is particularly important that the freedom of the Internet be protected against either the encroachment of government or the efforts at control by large media conglomerates. The future of our democracy depends on it.
I mentioned that along with cause for concern, there is reason for hope. As I stand here today, I am filled with optimism that America is on the eve of a golden age in which the vitality of our democracy will be re-established and will flourish more vibrantly than ever. Indeed I can feel it in this hall.
As Dr. King once said, "Perhaps a new spirit is rising among us. If it is, let us trace its movements and pray that our own inner being may be sensitive to its guidance, for we are deeply in need of a new way beyond the darkness that seems so close around us."

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